TESTIMONY
HEALING & WHOLENESS
When Your Soul Breaks, God Draws Near (Part 1)
Brokenness of soul is one of the hardest things to articulate. It doesn’t fit neatly into a
definition or a single set of emotions. It isn’t always dramatic on the outside, but it reshapes
everything on the inside. When you are the one living through it, it feels like trying to run on
a treadmill that never stops, moving forward one day and falling ten steps back the next.
Many women who are broken, silently ask:
“Why can’t I just get it together?”
“Why do I keep disappointing myself… and God?”
“Why can’t I grow spiritually no matter how hard I try?”
We love Jesus. We pray. We worship. We read the Word.
And still, something feels fractured. Something we can’t name, explain, or repair.
What makes brokenness so painful is not just the emotions, but the confusion:
How can a Christian who truly loves God feel this lost, this stuck, this empty?
And yet, this is the lived reality of many.
Brokenness Doesn’t Choose Its Victims
Brokenness is not selective. It affects:
• Women and men
• Every culture and background
• The wealthy and the struggling
• The believer and the unbeliever
For many, it begins at a defining moment, a moment that shatters the heart and rewrites the
way we see life, people, and ourselves.
Moments of abuse.
Abandonment/ Rejection
Infidelity.
Trauma.
Emotional neglect.
Violence.
Fear.
Shame.
Or even a series of small wounds that finally break something inside.
From that moment on, every decision and reaction is filtered through a wounded lens.
Brokenness is not “weak faith.”
It is the evidence of a wounded soul in need of a Healer.
God Sees the Broken-hearted and He Names Their Pain
Scripture does not hide from brokenness. God addresses it with tenderness: “The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
Psalm 34:18 “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” Psalm 147:3 “My spirit is broken… my days are extinguished.”
Job 17:1 The Bible honours the reality of suffering and so does God. He does not dismiss or minimise what we’ve lived through.
He comes close to it. Brokenness takes many forms:
– Anxiety
– Rage
– Shame
– Depression
– Compulsive behaviours
– Perfectionism
– People-pleasing
– Emotional withdrawal
– Control
– Addictions
All of these are symptoms of a heart trying to protect itself from further pain. But the greatest wound of all? Brokenness destroys relationships. Not intentionally — but inevitably. Hurt people hurt people. But healed people heal people. And this is where the story begins to shift.
Jesus Understands Brokenness — Because He Carried It
Isaiah describes Jesus as:
“A man of sorrows and familiar with suffering.”
Isaiah 53:3
He knows the sting of betrayal.
He knows rejection.
He knows emotional agony.
He knows loneliness.
He knows what it feels like to be misunderstood and unseen.
And yet — God never leaves brokenness as the final chapter.
He promises deliverance:
“The righteous person may have many troubles,
but the Lord delivers him from them all.”
Psalm 34:19
“You will pass through the waters…
through the fire…
but you will not be consumed.”
Isaiah 43:2
Brokenness is acknowledged.
Pain is validated.
Suffering is seen.
But deliverance is guaranteed.
Brokenness Becomes the Soil of Glory
What the enemy uses to break us, God uses to transform us.
“Our present sufferings are not worth comparing
with the glory that will be revealed in us.”
Romans 8:18
“These trials have come
so that the proven genuineness of your faith…
may result in praise, glory, and honour…”
1 Peter 1:6–7
Healing does not erase your story.
It redeems it.
It repurposes it.
It becomes a testimony and a calling.
♥ A Message from My Heart
If you find yourself in this chapter of brokenness, please hear this:
There is healing. There is restoration. There is wholeness.
And God Himself is committed to walking you into it.
This is only Part 1 of the journey. In Part 2, I will share my personal story of how God stepped into the deepest places of my
pain, restored my soul, healed my identity, and led me into purpose.
My Journey from Brokenness to Wholeness (Part 2)
There comes a moment in every woman’s life when the pain becomes too loud to silence, too
heavy to carry, and too familiar to ignore. For years I lived with a quiet ache a brokenness
that didn’t match my faith, my love for God, or the way others perceived me. I served,
prayed, worshipped, and encouraged, yet inwardly I felt fragile, almost hollow.
It wasn’t that I didn’t believe God could heal. I just didn’t know how to let Him heal me.
I didn’t realise that the version of strength I was living in was actually survival.
And survival is not the same as wholeness.
This is my journey from wounded to whole, from functioning to free, from surviving to truly
living again.
The Moment I Realised Something Had to Change
My turning point wasn’t dramatic, it was honest.
It was waking up one morning exhausted from carrying emotions I had never processed.
It was noticing the patterns in my reactions, relationships, and decisions.
It was God gently showing me that what I called normal was actually pain speaking.
It sounded like:
• “I don’t want to feel this way anymore.”
• “There must be more than this cycle.”
• “Lord, I love You, but I’m not okay.”
Brokenness was no longer something I could push through with worship songs or spiritual
discipline. It needed to be addressed. Not hidden. Not spiritualised. Not buried.
And God, in His kindness, waited patiently for me to say,
“Lord… heal me.”
God Meets You Where Your Pain Begins
Healing didn’t start with answers, it started with truth.
The truth about what happened. The truth about how deeply it affected me. The truth about the lies I believed. The truth about the wounds I tried to outrun. And most importantly, the truth that God never left me — not for a moment. The Holy Spirit began walking me back to places I had avoided. Not to expose me, but to free me. Not to reopen wounds, but to heal what I had covered. Not to shame me, but to restore what had been stolen. One memory at a time. One lie at a time.One layer at a time. Healing is never rushed, it is revealed.
When God Starts Putting the Pieces Back Together
There came a point when I realised:
Healing wasn’t God fixing an event but rather it was God restoring me.
I started to see:
♥ My identity was not broken — my heart was.
♥ My calling was not lost — my confidence was.
♥ My purpose was not destroyed — my perspective was wounded.
♥ My faith was not weak — my soul was tired.
God didn’t shame me for the places I was hurting. He held them. He honoured them. He healed them.Piece by piece, He made me whole again.
A Different Kind of Strength Emerged
As healing deepened, I began to notice subtle but powerful shifts in my life:
♥ My reactions became calmer.
♥ My relationships became healthier.
♥ My decisions became clearer.
♥ My boundaries became stronger.
♥ My heart became softer.
♥ My worship became deeper.
I wasn’t fighting to be okay anymore. I was okay.
The cycle broke. Hope returned. My joy wasn’t forced anymore, it flows My faith wasn’t weary, it is anchored. For the first time in a long time… I recognised myself again. But not the version shaped by pain , the version God designed from the beginning.
Purpose Was Waiting on the Other Side of Healing
I realised something profound:
Healing is never just about the person being healed.
Healing is about the people waiting on the other side of your obedience.
God didn’t restore me so I could keep my story silent.
He restored me because someone else needed to hear:
“If God healed her, He can heal me.”
My testimony became a tool.
My journey became an assignment.
My healing became a calling.
And CHOSEN Magazine is part of that calling, a platform for women to find hope, identity,
and wholeness through Christ.
♥ A Final Word from My Heart
If you recognise your own journey in mine, please know this:
You are not too broken.
You are not too far gone.
You are not unseen.
You are not beyond repair.
You are deeply loved by a God who restores.
He sees every shattered place, every silent tear, every buried memory.
And He is committed to your healing, all the way to wholeness.
This is not the end of your story.
It is the beginning of your becoming.
HEALING & WHOLENESS
Living Whole: Walking in Identity, Purpose & Freedom (Part 3)
Healing is not the end of the story, it is the beginning of a new chapter. After God restores your heart, there comes a moment where you must learn to live from a healed place, not a wounded one. This is where transformation becomes lifestyle, and wholeness becomes the lens through which you see yourself, others, and your calling. Wholeness is not perfection. Wholeness is alignment , your identity, your soul, and your purpose finally moving in the same direction.
This is the part of my journey that surprised me the most.
Wholeness Begins with Identity — Knowing Who You Are in Christ
One of the first things God restored in me was my true identity.
Not the version shaped by childhood wounds, past experiences, disappointments, or people’s opinions but the identity He spoke over me from the beginning. When the soul heals, identity becomes clear.
I began to realise:
♥ I am not what happened to me.
♥ I am not the labels that tried to define me.
♥ I am not the mistakes I made out of brokenness.
♥ I am who God says I am — chosen, called, healed, beloved.
Identity is the foundation of wholeness.
Without it, we keep returning to cycles God already delivered us from. With it, we walk boldly into the life God designed for us.
Wholeness Resets Your Vision — You See Yourself and Others Differently
Brokenness distorts vision.
Wholeness restores it. For the first time, I could see myself with compassion instead of criticism. I could see people with understanding instead of fear. I could see relationships through the lens of healthy boundaries instead of emotional survival. Where I used to react, I now responded. Where I used to assume, I now discerned. Where I used to absorb pain, I now guarded my peace. Wholeness reshapes the way you show up in the world.
Wholeness Births Purpose — You Realise Your Story Has Power
There is a powerful truth I discovered:
God doesn’t waste anything. Not even the parts we wish never happened. Your healed testimony becomes someone else’s breakthrough.
Your restored identity becomes a roadmap for someone still searching. Your freedom becomes an invitation for others to pursue theirs.
For years, I prayed for purpose. Only later did I realise that purpose is often hidden inside the places God heals. Women began coming to me with the same wounds I once carried. God allowed me to recognise their pain because I had lived it. He allowed me to speak life because I had received it. He allowed me to guide them because He had guided me.Pain once whispered shame. Purpose now speaks hope.
Wholeness Strengthens Your Spiritual Authority
Healing didn’t just make me whole it made me stronger. Not the kind of strength that strives or survives. A different strength, the kind rooted in peace, grounded in Christ, and led by the Holy Spirit.
I started to walk with:
♥ Confidence without arrogance
♥ Humility without shrinking
♥ Discernment without suspicion
♥ Compassion without exhaustion
♥ Boundaries without guilt
This is what spiritual authority looks like in a healed woman.
Her presence shifts the room because she carries the peace she once prayed for.
Wholeness Sustains Itself Through Surrender
Healing took willingness. Living whole takes surrender. Daily surrender. Quiet surrender. Honest surrender.
It looks like:
♥ Choosing forgiveness again
♥ Guarding your heart without hardening it
♥ Letting God lead relationships
♥ Staying accountable
♥ Protecting your peace
♥ Remaining teachable
♥ Letting the Holy Spirit interrupt old patterns
Wholeness isn’t something you keep by effort, it is something you keep by staying close to
the Healer.
My Message to Every Woman Pursuing Wholeness
You are not behind. You are not disqualified. You are not too damaged for God to use.
You are simply in process and process is holy. Your story matters. Your healing matters.
Your voice matters. Your calling matters. Your wholeness matters. When God heals a woman, He heals generations. When God restores a woman, He restores legacy. When God sets a woman free, she becomes a force in the Kingdom. And for you , this is just the beginning.
Thank you for journeying through my story May your healing become your testimony, and your testimony become your ministry.